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01 July 2009 @ 08:04 pm
So last night I had an epiphany and realized that Stephen Colbert is
the man of my dreams. He has everything that I look for in a man. He's
intelligent, handsome, successful, honest and witty. He's a sarcastic narcissist with great hair and a beautiful smile.
And most importantly, he makes me laugh. I must now find him and force him to marry me. The end.

 oh yeah, and he doesn't mind acting like a big fat dork in public... sigh* =)
29 June 2009 @ 01:57 pm
It's been a while since my last entry. It's summer now. Stupid heat puts me in a bad mood. But I had an AMAZING weekend. I just really wanna enjoy this summer. It feels good not having to worry about school for at least a couple months, and I'm gonna make the best of it. I talked to a counselor on Tuesday and well, she pretty much reminded me how much work I have ahead of me and I could feel the nerd in me slowly coming out. So then I started feeling bad about the past few weeks, cause it seems like I've been drinking a lot and doing a lot of that other stuff. But then I thought to myself, I know that once school starts I'll go into super nerd mode and I'll go weeks without even stepping outside my house. So I deserve having a little fun right now. I deserve to go drink after work without having to worry about finishing up homework and whatnot. So as Mr. Loser Face would say "Fuck it! Shit Happens!" I'm gonna go ahead and have fun while I can and I won't  feel guilty about it.

PANIC! 42 days til I see my boys!! I miss them, so, so much!! and I am SO excited about the new single! I think I'm more excited about this than the actual show! I can't believe we finally get new material! I am so curious about what this new album is gonna sound like. Yes, I'm a little nervous, but I trust them... I'm sure no matter what it sounds like, I'm gonna LOVE it =)

Comic Con is less than a month away and I can not wait!

Don't feel like talking boys, but let's just say that  I'm weird, and sometimes I have no idea what the hell is wrong with me, and I'm weird, and I need to get slapped so I can snap out of this. But right now, I'm ok with it and it makes ME happy so whatever! I'm happy!

My Brenny's been sick for a week now. I feel super guilty, cause I feel like every since I got Ryan I've been neglecting him. I feel horrible. But I got him some medicine, he's eating now, but still swims a little funny, if he doesn't get better in a couple days I'm gona go out and buy him different medication =/

I'm so stressed right now. I don't like it. Gonna try and focus on the positive things.
26 May 2009 @ 10:06 pm
So I'm free!
Hello Summer! I hate you, but not having to worry about school for a couple months, sure is something to be happy about...

Last week was good, finals weren't as bad. I think I always over-study for tests... oh well, that can't be a bad thing,,, I got a beautiful A in my Bio class! I so love my professor! I'm gonna miss him! =( my Astronomy teacher too! I was surprised to be genuinely saddened the last day of  class... I swear, if it wasn't for all the physics/geometry that's involved with it, I'd seriously consider changing my major.

Weekend was okay... a little bit more than okay, i would say.. ha! But I won't talk about it =)

Last night, we went to visit Ramon, it was totally unexpected... Seeing his grave only made everything more, I don't know... real? and I thought it would just bring all the sadness and the horrible feelings back,   but it actually had the exact opposite effect... It was good getting to talk about him, get everything out, say goodbye in a way... We just hung out there for a while, smoked and drank some with him. It was good. =)

Worked a 9hr shift today... I'm exhausted! Got the day off tomorrow, gonna hang out with Alananana! it should be fun =)

Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: Working Class Hero
16 May 2009 @ 11:55 pm
I knew today was coming, I felt it,  but I definitely didn't imagine it like that. I was waiting for the pain. I was expecting it. I was ready for it, but it never came. Tonight, I realized that I fell out of love with you long time ago. For the first time ever, I see you as nothing but my past; not my present, and definitely not my future. We were just kids...  We're different people now. You're a complete stranger to me. This is good though, you look happy and I'm glad you are. We're both happy, so I guess in the end, we did make the right decisions. I'm proud of us.

"You can't see everything that you did to me, with your automatic eyes... Five years disappeared, five years disappeared that night"
I feel you Carden, I feel you...
15 May 2009 @ 11:20 pm
Blink 182- September 16, 2009.
I get to see Blink 182 live, on September 16, 2009.  Hometown Show... ahhh!!!

I cried when I told my mom this morning haha That's like freaking 10 years of waiting!
I cried so much when they broke up, and I think it was mostly, cause I'd never gotten to see them live.
And now it's finally happening! Ah, Blink... I remember when I had a HUGE crush on Tom, and I remember I used to paint my left hand fingernails black, cause I'd read somewhere that Tom did that =')

I am soooo happy about this, that I didn't even complain too much about not getting Panic to open for them.. I mean,
first of all, I am so, so happy for Panic, they must be STOKED! my bbs get to go on tour with their bbs! haha
I can't even imagine how happy they must be and that makes ME happy. If only I could see all the things that are gonna be done/said during this tour haha And well, I can't really complain, cause I get to see Panic this summer anyway... and I still am extremely grateful for that, I can't believe I got sooo lucky! =)

Besides, a tour with such an amazing lineup would've probably been a little bit too much for me.. haha If Blink is really sticking with that setlist Mark posted, then that means, they're gonna play "Always"..... and when they do, I'm gonna become one of those emo kids that are sitting on the floor, crying, and rocking themselves back and forth. I haven't heard that song in AGES. I deleted it from my computer, mainly, cause it made me feel like I had a knife stuck in my chest. "Always" is such a beautiful song. It's a song that's supposed to be full of hope and optimism. A song about taking second chances. A song about fixing whatever problems you might have in a relationship and being able to start over. At one time,  listening to that song made me happy, it made me believe that we were strong enough to work our problems out and that everything was gonna be alright in the end.  But now, istening to that song, just reminds me that, well, it wasn't.  For us,  it was the exact opposite.  That song, for me, is just a reminder of  all the things that weren't fixed, how nothing was alright in the end, and that second, third, and 20th chances mean shit. And basically, that I was wrong, I was wrong about everything. Dissapointment. I think that sums it up. It makes me feel dissapointed.

Ew.. why do I always ruin my posts with emo relationship crap? Soooo pathetic...
My blog's starting to look like Keltie's.... I deserve the stars~ you know?
I make myself sick. Ok, I'm seriously gonna stop now.
No more butthurt shit on my blog on my blog from now on...

oh.. just one last thing: My Gabe looking crush at work is a whore and I don't like him anymore, and I'm sad =(
and yeah.. okay, I'm done.

The point was that, I'm gonna cry my eyes out at a Blink show, and it's not gonna be fun... boo!
ok yeah, I don't care.. I'm gonna be at a Blink 182 show! yay!!!!!!!!

Anywho.... today was fun. Friends, food, Petco Park... a little alcohol  would've made it perfect. But it was still good =)
Guy proposed to his girlfriend in the middle of the game and it was the sweetest thing ever.
Padres won, and we got FIREWORKS! =)

School in a few hours... boo!! =(

Current Music: Between you and I

heh... can't sleep...  I'm so tired... yet, I feel like my mind is going 1000mph...
Finals are coming up, I am not looking forward to it. However, I am definitely looking forward to this summer!!!
yoga class is all paid for, music class sounds like fun, car-buying is definitely happening in the next couple months, and for some strange reason, I'm actually excited about looking for another job,

and well... who am I kidding?

I can't wait for Comic Con, new movie/album releases, and most importantly... SUMMER TOURS!
Summer Tours that include my current favorite band and the band that made me fall in love with music....
ah, Blink, I am so stoked about this. Totally turned my mood around when I heard the news.

Sadly, my trip to the zoo today was completely ruined by "guy that can't take a hint". When did men become so completely clueless and ANNOYING!? What do you have to do to make them understand you are NOT interested? I'm sounding like such a stuck up bitch right now, but I swear I don't think I've ever been that frustrated... I have no idea how I restrained myself  from yelling at him to leave me the fuck alone. The sun was in my face, kids were everywhere, and dude kept following me around and suffocating me! I had plans to go in, listen to my music, enjoy the animals, do my work and get the hell out. But nooooo, dude couldn't leave me alone for a second! It ruined my entire day...  I guess it also didn't help that I'm in that time of the month...heh I hate being a girl so much. Men have it so easy.. everything is so much easier and funner for them. Bastards don't even have any feelings.

.... wait, how did this become a rant post? heh... I guess that's what blogs are for... and I have horrible cramps, so I get to do whatever I want..

 I miss Scrubs so much =(  I miss it so much, it hurts sometimes.... ha!

 Happy birthday to my husband to be, Stephen Colbert...  and to my beloved Robert Pattinson!!!!!

and that is all.

Current Music: Believe me Natalie
02 May 2009 @ 03:14 pm
I just had a really, really awesome week, and I am HAPPY! =)

First of all, it was The Rescue week! I'm so glad I got to be a part of such an inspiring and empowering movement. Last Saturday was amazing from beginning to end. We got rescued by a Chargers player, which I thought was awesome! Other cities weren't as lucky and had to endure a few more days. Chicago was the last city to be rescued. Yesterday,  After 6 days of being abducted, they were  finally rescued by OPRAH! It was beyond amazing! I am so proud of all those kids. They aren't only helping build awareness about the kids in Northern Uganda; but they are also demonstrating that, despite of what most of people say, our voices can and will be heard, and we WILL make a difference!!

truly a wonderful day =)

And now, for the not so serious stuff, PANIC! I will be seeing Panic at the Disco in 97 days!!!! I'm so stoked about this!! Specially cause it really caught me by surprise! I was not expecting it AT ALL! I woke up from a great nap and looked at my phone, and there it was: "Panic at the Disco opening for No Doubt show in San Diego" I got a little dizzy, rushed to my computer, and Ticketmaster confirmed the news. I figured I would first hear news about a demo, or a leaked song, or the new album, but I was definitely not epecting a show. We are soooo lucky to be the only city where Panic will be opening for No Doubt =) Living in San Diego is finally paying off.

btw I'm still kinda mad the "Let's Make a Mess Tour" isn't coming to SD..... and I am hoping that the "What Happens in Vegas Tour" does come here...   and I'm seeing Panic in 97 days!! wait, did I already say that? =)

I'm so excited for this summer!

uhmm what else?... I got my midterms back and I got the highest score in the class for both Bio and Astronomy.... and I have A's in both classes so far! I am happy, happy, happy about that! I love geeky Sammy! I'm meeting with my counselor on Monday to talk about getting my Associate's Degree by the end of next semester!!!!!!!!!!!! And I might be graduating with Honors!!! Soooo excited!!!! =D

Hot new guy at work also makes me happy.

Thursday night was midnight premiere night!!! Best part of it was, definitely, getting to hang out with my nakas, and talk boys! haha and also seeing Hugh Jackmans butt, of course. Good times...

Yesterday I got up at noon! but still managed to get a lot of stuff done...
And I guess that is all for now...

It's all good in the neighborhood homes.
Current Mood: bouncy
23 April 2009 @ 11:09 pm

Imma do the things that i wanna do
I ain't got a thing to prove to you
I'll eat my candy with the pork and beans
Excuse my manners if i make a scene
I ain't gonna wear the clothes that you like
I'm fine and dandy with the me inside
One look in the mirror and i'm tickled pink
I don't give a hoot about what you think

17 April 2009 @ 11:57 pm
Better. Today was better.
I was able to sleeplast night.. whenever I'm stressed out, I always wake up and my heart is beating really fast. It's scary. I'm pretty sure it started happening after I stopped taking pills. Bastard really screwed me over in every single way, didn't he?
ha! I guess I am still a little bitchy... but I am almost back to normal.
I hate being sad... well who doesn't right? But I like to think of myself as a happy person. Most of the time I'm always singing/dancing/ or doing/saying something completely idiotic. It makes me happy. I make myself happy. (wow that sounds crazy) but it's true... I miss my dorky self whenever I go through these "depression stages"....

I've been listening to Weezer a lot these past days. They remind me of a time in my life when I had no worries at all. I remember they would always play Island in the Sun on MTV every morning while I was getting ready for school. It's weird cause I usually listen to angsty, angry music  to get me through times like this; but Weezer's working pretty good so far.

Happiness depends more on the inward disposition of mind than on outward circumstances.
Benjamin Franklin